Sunday, March 17, 2013

May it Be According to Your Faith

Since Christmas I have been meandering through the book of Luke. Granted, I took a deer trail through Psalms, and a sashay through  bit of II Corinthians, too. Still, I have been taking my time about getting through Luke, thinking about what Jesus said, what He was really like... And what the people around Him were really like, too. More than once persons come to Jesus asking Him to heal them and He responds with things like, "Your faith has made you well," or "Let it be according to your faith."

What if I asked Jesus to make my [near-sighted] eyes able to see? Would I really have the faith to lay aside my glasses and be able to see perfectly whilst driving? What about my spiritual eyes - do I think Jesus has more authority over spiritual things than physical things? It is sad that I think Jesus is more able to heal my heart than my eyesight. He made both my heart and my body, He has equal authority and ability to heal them.  Yet He has every reason not to - not if healing is in proportion to my faith. My faith is cramped, atrophied, beggarly. I have lost  much of the childlike innocence that believes without wavering and doubting. I have grown old, and my Father is younger than me (to paraphrase Chesterton). I hate growing old, talking of lifeless things, forgetting how to believe, knowing now the double meaning behind various phrases, and the sordid like. 

I do not think innocence means ignorance. I believe it is a knowing, a belief, that transcends  --even halts-- senility of heart and mind. In a way, innocence is the deepest knowing, both clarity of sight and of insight.

My more youthful self asked yesterday (after reading of the lepers who were cleansed and the nine who never came): "What if every time I sinned it appeared on my skin like a boil or leprosy? What if I then had to go around shouting out, 'Unclean! Unclean!'?" I shuddered, knowing I would be hideous beyond imagining. Then I had a feeling of relief and joy: I was unclean, but since God made Him Who knew no sin to be sin for us --for me!-- and in that same act made us to be righteousness itself, I am no longer unclean. Though I still wrestle with sin and my own fleshly desires, God forever sees me as redeemed through the blood of Jesus... Because God is not trapped in our linear time like we are. He sees us as we are - though we see ourselves as still becoming, in our limited time-line existence.

Something about knowing that I am the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus gives me more faith. Perhaps seeing the miracle --it is nothing short of that-- of being made righteousness itself reminds me that if God can do that great (vastly more far-reaching) work, He can heal my eyes, or cancer, or broken arms and broken hearts. May it be according to our faith.

~ Johanna


  1. It almost seems silly to tell someone to "have faith." How does one have faith? Every time I try to have faith, I realize I end up working myself harder and trusting God less. My other method is pretending I don't care.

    You should figure this out and let me know.

  2. Hm, yes, 'having faith' isn't just something we acquire by trying, good point.

    I earnestly believe that we must pray for more faith. Some persons have more 'natural' ability to simply trust that God (or others, even) will do what He says, or can do greater things than they have already known...

    The rest of us must pray for God to increase our faith. Actually, I think even those born/growing up with this ability to believe/trust more easily still need to pray for greater faith. It is something we will always need to increase until we no longer need faith (when we are with the Lamb who was slain Himself).

    Isn't it neat to think there will be a day when faith is no longer necessary because we will be with Jesus, the Finisher of our faith?

    Does that help make sense of 'having faith'?